Thursday, February 17, 2005
I wanna live like Jack and Sally and have halloween on Christmas. They're an awesome couple. My day went pretty awesome. It started off kinda miserable cause I was really tired and woke up at 7:21..but stuff happened and it made my day much better. My horscope said "This action you're considering may be premature. Let it gestate for a while longer."..makes me wonder. All of my horoscopes have been pretty positive..and maybe that why I've been in a positive mood. This week has been great. I can't wait till tommorow, but then again I don't want it to end. I have so much to say, but I worry what other people would think. I really wanna mention something BUT I don't want everyone to know cause people are nosy wiotches. One day, I'll tell everyone whats going on in my life. I should take the advice a friend gave me..don't rush things. I'll try not to but it seems so hard. I just don't wanna get hurt, cause that would be the worst...to go from extremely happy to sad. That isn't a good feeling. I swear "it's" all I ever talk about..and I feel kinda stupid for doing that. It's like I have nothing more interesting to talk about..and its true. I don't. Everything seems like a dream. A dream where I'm not really myself..shy and a mumbling idiot. I don't know why I do that. He asked me if I was. I said no cause I knew I wasn't...I just didn't wanna say anything..I don't know whats wrong with me! Its like I have to think a long time before saying something..because I'm scared it might be the wrong thing to say. I afraid of his reaction. Why should I be though?! He likes me for me...so I should be me. I don't know. Time will tell if my odd behavior will go away. Or maybe the reason is...."It's because you have a weiner" --Kristin. Ha maybe that's why?! I don't know. It was nice today...he was nice. I liked it. I get all squeamish when he does or says the simplest things..but its a good squeamish feeling..not a bad one. I think I made it look like a bad one..at one point. I hope this doesn't get in the way of my study habits because I admit..I have been slacking off. I just don't pay attention anymore. I don't wanna be like those girls who day dream in class all day..and think about boys. Ha. I've been slacking off here in record keeping and world geography. I didn't take ANY notes yesturday in world geography cause..I don't know..at the time I wanted to do something else that seemed more important. Here in Record Keeping..I do my work and all..but not at my full potential..I don't try. But that's okay because everyone makes an A in this class..we never do anything ..and Miss Stegemoller is cool like that. Wow, this entry turned out to be longer than I expected. Good Job for me! I'm sorry for keeping you all in wonder. Who knows if you'll know what I'm talking about in the future. Oh well. Time will tell. Thats all for now my blog fans! Bye Bye, I love you all!
anna is in regret on Thursday, February 17, 2005
