Hello there everyone. Ah yesh, I know I haven't written in so so long. My excuse: I'm actually busy. Well let me inform you all whats going on with me. I got together with a wonderful guy on the 23rd. We spent practically everyday together since..except for Friday cause I had a football game to go to. At this point, I couldn't be happier. I just love this feeling of being wanted and cared for. He just makes me feel so great, and I'm hoping I do the same for him. I hope this relationship last, but there is one thing that I'm worried about..The Rumors. I'll try not to let them bother me, but I just so upset when someone tells me something negative about him. I've heard a few bad things about him, and each time it hurt. Today, one of my little freshman buddies told me "The only reason he's being so nice to you is to get in your pants". I got pretty upset, but tryed not to show it too much. Of course if he was like that, I wouldn't be with him. Time will tell just like it did in the past. Moving on...

AGH..I hate ghetto mexicans that try to act cool! Some dirty monkey boy was throwing food at our table at lunch today. It was pretty entertaining on my part. I got all excited cause he tryed so hard to make us mad. Being one of the tiny people at our table..I got up and told him shit. I'm not gonna let worthless people like that walk all over yours truly. Ha..and then in the hall he was all "I don't give a shit"...so I told that fucker "You know why..cause you're a worthless piece of shit". It felt oh so good. I loved that feeling. Ha anyways.

Halloween ...one of my favorite times of the year! I'm planning on hanging out with Isaac. I'm not to sure what we're gonna do but I know that I do wanna stop by Samantha's house. She's having a party...so we'll see what happens. I'm not gonna dress up..I'm just gonna wear some comfortable clothes. Maybe all black...OoOO so gothic. Ha.

Matt's Haunted House kicked major ass! I heard the bitches screaming from the backyard haha. I heard that a pretty good amount of people came. I bet it beat the hell out of the "Cell Block of Torture". I think I played my part well..The Hot Zombie jk. I looked freaking ugly. After it was all over, I found out that Isaac was there practically the whole time. So I went and hung out with him..then changed..and talked with everyone. I had a really good time. Well I better work on my Spanish poster that I NEVER did. Everyone stay safe and have fun. Oh and don't come by my house..we have cheap candy. Bye all!


Happy Halloween

I know I haven't updated in a while. Let me recap you on what has been happening. I've been busy with school and band practice. Things have been really hectic lately. Life sucks right now. I'm pretty sure I'm failing Spanish. Fucking Fatima! I made a terrible grade on our test that we 50% of my average! So I'm basically screwed. Band has been taking up a lot of my time, but I expected this because we have competition on Saturday in Victoria. I'm kind of nervous about it. I haven't had time to do much of anything! It's just been three days out of my long week and I'm already stressed out and ready to give up. I haven't gotten more than five hours of sleep each day. It sucks. And to top that off, I'm have problems with my relationship with Jesse. Right now we're separated. I hate this on and off shit. It confuses me and pissed me off. I hate it when people toy with my emotions. Well I'm done talking about all that drama. Moving on..

I recently had a decent conversation with my ex from about 2 years ago. He changed a little bit. I don't really remember what we use to talk about. It was nice talking to him again. I admit it, I avoided him throughout my freshman year and about a month ago when I said hi to him..he told me that he thought I was ignoring him. Of course I denied it. Ha. It would be nice to start talking ot him, and catching up on things but I don't want to get to involved with him. Drama always happens. Anywho, I really miss my old buddies..Eric and Mr. Brian Abildgaard. I haven't talked to or seen Eric in a long ass time..but I talked to Brian about a week ago. I wish he would come down and hang with his old gangsta posse. I'm pretty sure he has new friends and I'm fine with that. But I hope he doesn't forget us. Same with Eric. Well I better be going now. I'll try to update later. Bye all.

12 Day till Halloween

Love: a grave mental disease

Well this past week has been very hard for me. My ex and I recently broke off our 6-month relationship. I took it pretty hard. But apparently he didn't. He's already with someone else. I was on the verge of kicking her ass, but I realized that wasn't her that cause me all this pain..she just got in the middle of it. Don't get me wrong..if she does do something that upsets me, I won't be so nice. Ha. But its okay...cause it's better to be alone then in a bad-relationship. I've been doing much better. The first couple of days were so hard. But my spirits are up and I'm not mourning what I had. I don't miss him, I miss who I though he was. A nice, funny, understanding person. Well that's all over with now, and I'm going to move on with life. It'll probably take me awhile to start the dating game again. I already got a few guys who are interested in me. It's quite flattering. Oh no I don't have to worry about not getting those late-night phone calls or having someone not care for me. It's all good now! Well I won't waste anymore valuable blog space for that idiot. I'm done crying over him. Moving on..

I have a marching band competition today in Edna, TX! I really hope we do good. Flutes got the section of the week last night! Yay..I enjoyed some high quality nachos with a side of plastic cheese. It was great. The football game kicked major ass last night! I had so much fun, and we actually won. [because jojo is back on the field] Yeah so things were great. Today is going to be a good day. Hoepfully I can buy a new t-shirt when we got to the Mall after competition is over. Aww..I don't have my buddy Paul to sit with on the bus :( he failed so I guess I find someone else to chat it up with. Well I got to get my stuff together and take a shower. I'll update later about how it all went. Bye All!