It's been awhile

I haven't updated in ten days I believe. Well not much has been going on. Just the usual shit. Just drama drama drama. And it seems like I'm always the one that gets caught in the middle and gets hurt. It sucks. Well this month has been going by quickly. I can't wait till schools out and I don't have to deal with all these stupid ass people. I'm tired of it already. I'd rather sleep than go to school. I've been so stressed mentally and physically. I'm not getting enough sleep, and all these things bother me and keep on replaying in my mind. I'm dumb and I don't know what I want anymore. I always end up getting hurt or being afraid that I'm going to hurt someone. I'm way to nice. If I stuck up for myself more, I probably wouldn't be in this situation. I just fall into it over and over again. And I'm truly fucking stupid for that. I guess that's why they call it 'life'.

Well Valentines Day was pretty interesting. Usually I dread this day. Of course I do celebrate it with my close friends and loved ones. I hate being lonely on Valentines Day, but it was technically like that this year. I don't know what to say about that. It was interesting and nice. I really liked the things I got from people. Especially from a certain someone. [Mmm..Melissa ha jk] Unfortunately, some stuff happened later that night. It made me feel like a real bitch, and I'm still sorry. I hope you understand.

I got to talk to my best-friend Brian! It was so nice talking to him. We talked on the phone for quite a while. I told him about all the shit that's going on right now and he gave me some advice. He even criticized me for some things that I did, but I deserved it. He's coming down tomorrow and I can't wait! I miss him! Eric was also here this week! I missed him too. Saturday, I'm planning on sleeping over at Melissa's house and just hanging out with the guys. I'm guaranteed to have a blast. Well that's all that I've got for now. No instruments tomorrow! Yes! Bye.