Sigh

Well the whole trip to Dallas didn't go as I expected it to. I felt terribly ill yesterday, so I called my mom to pick me up around 5th period. Then I cancelled going on the trip. I'd rather stay home then be sick/bitchy guest. Oh well. Later that day, I went to see and movie with Kristin. The Hills have Eyes. It was such a great movie! There was so much gore. I just loved it!

Tomorrow I'm taking a trip to Potteet with my family. Hopefully it'll be fun! It's been awhile since I've been there, and I think we're gonna go to my mom's old house out in the deep country. I went there a couple of years ago and it was pretty creepy. It's makes me thankful for what I have.

Ugh I'm just so full of all these emotions. I'm angry, confused, jealous, hurt...and so much more. I'm angry about lots of things. I'm confuse all the time. I'm so jealous. And my heart hurts almost everyday that I think about certain things. I don't know why I let these things get to me. They shouldn't because it's all over now. I just need to move on. It's much easier typed then actually done. It hurts when I think of what it use to be like. I never going to know how that feels anymore. It's been passed on to someone else. I guess someone more deserving. I'm so fucking stupid. How did I end up being one of those girls that I always hated? I always told myself that if something like this happened, I'd just move on with my life. What the fuck happened? I'm just a stupid girl. If you cared how could you do this? I don't go around hurting my friends. I don't go around saying lies. I just don't know what to say or think now. One day everything will be okay. I will be happy. Someone will love everything about me. Someone will make me happy without even trying. When that day comes the hurt will be replaced with joy, the hate will be replaced with love, and I will forget about you.