So I have not updated since the 14th of April.

So much has been going on that it's so hard to talk about everything. I'll sum most of what has been going on in the past two months in a few words.

My group of friends slowly broke apart. Hearts were broken. Trust disappeared. People got mad. Ignorance was soon required. Hatred slowly built up. Rumors were spread. Tears were shed. Confusion. Jealousy. Relationships were built. People became lonely. People became close. School ended.

What occured in those past two months were very painful. Things changed so fast & I didn't like it one bit. But that was the past. Hopefully friendships can be repaired & I won't fall into the trap of stupidity [once again].

All of this happened for a reason & I have learned to except it. Now I have to go throught the process of mending what I destroyed & hopefully getting back what I lost. But some things I will probably never be able to get back. I don't think I'll even try if it causes more hurt on my side. Things just get so confusing at times.

Good thing I have became closer to friends & I'm not lonely all the time anymore. I have my moments where I think I need someone to call my own. But I already have that. I have my friends to call my own. They never hurt me. They never fool me & they sure as hell have never made me cry. They are the best people I have ever known. When I'm with them, I forget about everything that causes me so much pain. Everything is better when I'm with them. They make me happy!

Life is well. Now I need to make some changes. For the better of us all. For the better of me.