Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I'm just not in the mood to add up all the days I haven't posted.
This weekend has been full of mixed emotions on my account. The last month of 2006 has been just so horrible to me. But there is no one to blame but myself. I put myself in stupid situations and just make terrible decisions. So I take all the fault. I'm the bad guy this time not matter how much I don't want to believe it.

I haven't been my normal self lately. I've made mistakes and I regret them so badly. Who knows, those unwise decisions could change me forever. So this is what it's like to be the long awaited seventeen years old, huh? Oh joy. So far it has brought me nothing but pain and regret.

So much is going on right now. My personal life is taking its toll on my school work. It's seems like everyday I wake up, go to a place I hate, sit there like a vegetable, and then come home angry at everyone. Maybe this is just a phase? I hate being mean to my brother and sister. I've been cussing uncontrollably and I don't like how ugly I've gotten. This really needs to stop. But the question now is, how? I hardly talk to my best friend anymore. The only time we actually talk is at school. She has no idea how I'm feeling or what's going on. It's not her fault. I'm the one that hasn't been open like we're suppose to be with each other. Damn.

We'll see what else this month holds in store for my wonderful self. That's all for now.

Goodbye.




anna is in regret on Tuesday, December 05, 2006